THE GREAT DEPRESSION

My week has started of bad to worst now..seriously this past week has been so emotional and extremely DEPRESSING for me and every1 i love or loved..

I've never been this sad or down in my life before and i seriously do not like it at all! hmm how i wished everything could go back to the way it was, but i know deep deep down inside, no matter how hard i wish or pray it will never be the same again and that really rips my heart!

I thought i knew my friends from back to front and inside out, i thought that i could trust my friends with my life, but all to soon i found out that i am so damn WRONG!

Since i was little my mum always said "No matter how well you know a person, the only person you can really trust is yourself and of course God", but i never believed her because i never really knew how mean a person could get until now.. right now i can't trust anyone anymore, to many lying and backstabing..

this week has really drained me so much, everynight i keep thinking about past memories and it saddens me so much...but maybe someday we can all forgive and forget...someday..

My head is hurting soo much right now from all this that i'm probebly going to explode soon...but really i want this to end so i just wanted to say one last thing even if it does make me sound like a hypocrite!

I LOVE EVERYONE OF MY FRIENDS NO MATTER HOW HORRIBLE THEY ARE TO ME, SINCE I'VE NEVER HAD BROTHERS OR SISTERS BEFORE I FEEL THAT YOU GUYZ ARE THAT, EVEN THOUGH SOME OF YOU HAVE HURT ME SO BAD I COULD NEVER BE ANGRY AT YOU FOREVER!! SO PLEASE NO MORE OF THIS, I'M TIERED JUST FORGIVE ONE ANOTHER, I MEAN THERE'S ALWAYS 2 SIDES OF THE STORY AND I SAY THAT BOTH PARTIES ARE WRONG IN SOME WAY...it's true what some of you say that christians don't lie, or backstab, or swear but as a christian we should forgive each other just like jesus died on the cross for us...

some of you may say i'm weak for doing this, but i GIVE UP! i truely GIVE UP